Kim Kardashian Still Cries’ over Paris Robbery

 

It’s been nearly six months since Kim Kardashian West was the victim of a terrifying robbery in Paris, but the memories continue to haunt the reality star.

While alone in her Hotel room on Oct. 3, Kardashian West was bound, gagged and held at gunpoint while five masked men invaded her apartment and robbed her of millions of dollars worth of jewels during Paris Fashion Week.

A source tells PEOPLE that the traumatic events from that night are still difficult for her.

“Kim has come a long way from the robbery but that said, it’s a daily struggle to move past it and she probably never will be past it entirely,” says the source close to the reality star.

A second source tells PEOPLE that, “Kim still speaks of the robbery as the most horrific experience she has ever had” and “is still vulnerable and cries about the robbery.”

But despite the negative impact that the robbery had on the 36-year-old KUWTK star, the experience has helped put things into perspective in her life and shifted her focus back onto her two children — daughter North, 3, and son Saint, 15 months — and marriage.

Before the robbery, Kim was often stressed out about her family/work balance. She many times felt that work overtook and she often missed her kids,” says the second source. “This all changed after the robbery. Now, Kim very much enjoys being a mom first. Work comes second. She loves being at home with her kids and is much happier.”

On Sunday’s episode of KUWTK, Kardashian West opened up about the life-threatening experience and how she managed to survive the attack to sisters Kourtney and Khloé Kardashian.

“It was really hard for me when the police started to show up, because they were dressed in the same uniforms, except for the face masks,” Kardashian West said. “I was like, ‘Who do I believe? What is real? What is going on?’ ”